yoyo ma...

i just had a perfect day with my mother...
shopping, lunch, craig's list men seeking women...
mom and kid love is such a crazy love...
so instinctual...
so simple and convoluted all at the same time...
i love no other the way i love my mother...
as a mother,a sister, a friend, a mentor, a role model and most importantly...
as an inspiration...
she constantly inspires me to feel or do something...
with everything...
her fingerprints are smugded on every page of my book...
we've had a rough go of it lately...
not with each other...
although there has been some moments...
she has saved my life so many times these past 7 months...
and maybe there's something to the fact that we both pressed our luck...
and landed on a whammy at the same time...
who the hell knows...
i think we both stopped trying to figure out why...
it just is
and we just are...
it's hard for me to see her hurting..
digging down and dragging it all up...
dealing with her shit...
and she's just at the beginning...
but already she feels lighter to me...
truer to herself...
i am and always have been proud of the "one" i get to call mom...
i've always wanted to thank whoever arranged that...
the only bummer is that i have to share her with my 2 brothers...
but that's ok...
because i'm her favorite...
susan margret screnci hauer mingey yoyo ma tootsie...
oh my yoyo ma...
one of a kind and all mine...